The Worst and the Best and Thanksgiving

So I hit rock bottom with the 65% on the biochem midterm. Seeing the answers, I just wanted to bang some sense into my head. I didn't do that, but rather went on a Xenosaga marathon. I made it through an entire chapter, and probably played at least 10 hours on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Saturday.

The best part was being able to escape from school for a while, to go to Chicago and just be with my family and know that they are there for me, and to be grateful for being blessed and being allowed to do so badly on a test without being killed, or losing scholarship money, or whatever, and being allowed to choose what I want to study (and even change my mind last minute)... In this way Thanksgiving is the best time of year for me to appreciate these things, because this time of the year is always a joy for me. For those people who can no longer enjoy Thanksgiving with loved ones, Thanksgiving time must be one of the most depressing times of the year. Parity isn't something that can be created though, and I just accept that I am better off than most people in the world and I must be sensitive to others without being too pitying. The best thing is to be honest with yourself, because lies hurt more than truths.

So, being honest with myself, I can still love chemistry and bomb a chemistry exam. I can still graduate in 3 years and enjoy my years in college. I can still foster my language obsession without being a language major, and not regret it. I can still have 5 billion crushes on people and yet still never imagine myself ever having a boyfriend/girlfriend (or crossdresser!). I can still be a ranter on Blogger and not have anything to say to you.